我責打你們的兒女是徒然的，他們不受懲治。你們自己的刀吞滅你們的先知，好像殘害的獅子。這世代的人哪，你們要看明耶和華的話。我豈向以色列作曠野呢？或作幽暗之地呢？我的百姓為何說：我們脫離約束，再不歸向你了？處女豈能忘記他的妝飾呢？新婦豈能忘記他的美衣呢？我的百姓卻忘記了我無數的日子！ (耶利米書2章30-32)

​​​​​​​​In vain have I struck your children;
they took no correction;
your own sword devoured your prophets
like a ravening lion.
​​​​​​​​And you, O generation, behold the word of the LORD.
Have I been a wilderness to Israel,
or a land of thick darkness?
Why then do my people say, ‘We are free,
we will come no more to you’?
​​​​​​​​Can a virgin forget her ornaments,
or a bride her attire?
Yet my people have forgotten me
days without number.
(Jeremiah 2:30-32)

Correction. Freedom. Forget.

Strike are meant to bring correction. Freedom are set to bring people back. Days are given to be remembered.

再一次被從前的自己抓着。在自己裏面找，只找到軟弱、無能。父母都說我是固執的人，但這不是說我有什麼力量是堅持什麼，若要說我有什麼能力，就只有像以色列家一樣固執行惡的能力。

回想這一年，有長進麼？有為主做過什麼事麼？若有，就只有一些 Nominal 上的事，按名或許可以稱得上是長進、是事奉，但實際卻不算得什麼。

有話說：人若休妻，妻離他而去，作了別人的妻，前夫豈能再收回他來？若收回他來，那地豈不是大大玷污了麼？但你和許多親愛的行邪淫，還可以歸向我。這是耶和華說的。 (耶利米書3章1節)

If a man divorces his wife ​​​​​​​and she goes from him ​​​​​​​and becomes another man’s wife, ​​​​​​​will he return to her? ​​​​​​​Would not that land be greatly polluted? ​​​​​​​You have played the whore with many lovers; ​​​​​​​and would you return to me? ​​​​​​​declares the LORD. ​​​(Jeremiah 3:1)

讀到耶利米書，仍是神那不捨的愛是我唯一的依靠。